why live such a complicated life?

To me, life is not about how much you get, but how much you learn, hence why not live a life as simple as possible? why must live a life so complicated that others cannot even define your thinking? why be such a person that brings people only confusion? what do you get out of it? nothing, in fact, you yourself might be the one getting hurt in the end, is it worth it? an old saying used to say, don't play with fire, yes, some people, espcially guys, might seem to be less sensitive and their EQ might be slower as compared to ladies, but they are not plain stupid, they have feelings too.

i do not like a person like that. when i first met her in first year, i thought she was quite special and smart, almost the perfect student, as she is a full scholarship student, and it is not easy to get it in my uni, during the day, she seem so nice and gentle, but she is so scary during table tennis session, her concentration is so great that i really salute her, she looks as if she is going to kill her opponent, she was not in malaysia during the second year, but when she return during the final year, i find her changed, too much.... or is it that i do not know her well enough?

but, regardless how, although i am not in a position to comment further, just do not play with others feelings, do not ever think that because you have many boys after you, that makes you great, it make no difference because you do not know others well, so quit thinking yourself as some VIP which others must listen and obey you, and don't make use of others you do not like, why not just conclude it to one candidate, be loyal and set the others free?? making use is not nice, and stop being so complicated....

Accumulated stress released

should i say that i am lucky or should i curse beneath my breath?? i think i will do the former better, well, at least i do not fall sick during exam period, otherwise it will be painful. Perhaps it is due to all the stress i have accumulated during the exam period, the lack of sleep and nutritious food really take its toll on my health, and just when i came back to KL, i did not slow down at all, but running here and there and cleaning up my closet, and since i have been a country girl for so long... and then, yesterday evening, i developed mild fever, associated with sore throat and running nose, to make a long story short, it is flu...

sigh~~~ just when i attained my freedom happily, i have to battle with illness now. but i am recovering now.. =) ... hope that i will recover fully by tomorrow, the first thing i am so going to do is to wash my hair, 2 days without washing my hair is so ugh, since i am born with oily scalp, so now, my hair looks like it had just been dipped into a bucket of oil, so disgusting...went to see doctor today, he said should be alright, hope that i will get well soon enough, since i have company medical checkup next friday, i do not want to go there in such health condition. Hence, i should be telling myself constantly, i will get well, i will be well when i awake from this sleep, everything will turn out fine... well, at least unlike previous flu conditions, i do not feel cold nor did i lost my appetite to eat.

a great friend went back to vietnam today, but no matter what, we will always be friends, the gang spirit lives on, even if we are busy with our lives, we still have each other, for i always believe that, good friends are not bound physically, but from within the heart.. thats why friends are meant to last forever..

not fully used to being a city girl again

The disadvantage of being in uni for exam break for too long: turn into a nerd totally or a pure country girl, it is like, i am used to being near to nature, and the weird thing is that, i am born and brought up in KL, and now, i am so not used to the life in the urban city.. what the...
haha.. anyway, after i arrive at KL yesterday, went straight to sunway pyramid.. shopping!! long time didn't do that already.. so happy!!! i lost a bit of weight and now i can wear one piece casual dresses already... and when i am about to leave, i noticed at the carpark, there is a forever 21 advertisement, and what a coincedence!!
see the similarity? haha.. we were wearing 99% same colour and style type of top, that is so amusing... lolz..

i meet up giang and ruo mei for lunch today, but sadly, a girl who hate lateless like me had been born into a family that is never punctual, so, i am late, but i managed to buy them lunch.. after all, i have no idea when i will meet them again, since they will be going back to their respective hometowns, i guess i will miss them badly.. well, i really hope to see them at grad and after that, goodness knows when i will see them again...
but my dears, will love you two always... thanks for being such wonderful friends...

after that, i went walking around mid valley on my own, its cool and feel so adult shopping on my own, however, seems like the usual shops i will visit, this batch of clothes isn't that nice, quite disappointing really.. haha..

during evening, just drop by grandma's home for a visit.. so sad... she said i put on weight? i actually did lost weight la.. if i put on weight during exam period, with my walks and now, 50 sit-ups a day.. its really sad.. then, drop by to see my baby niece, ying ying, she just turn 5 months yesterday, and she is cute, a very curious, happy baby... she look exactly like her father when he was a baby, though she is not those extremely pretty baby, but overtime, i believe she will grow up pretty... and one thing for sure, she is going to be clever, and she is a girl who hates being alone...
she is cute isn't she????

one very happy baby, and happily trying to eat her sock and suck her toe, haha, looks disgusting... but so cute for a baby to do it.. hope that she will grew up a good girl, be good, ying ying..

haha.. so tired, too bad i am not break into city life yet, but i hope it will be soon, since i only have 1 month summer and off i go, gotta grew up and be a mature, white-collar working woman..

goodbye uni..

Was sitting in my room that day after exams, thinking back about my life in uni, 4 interesting years i think i will never forget, 4 wonderful years with full of joy, laughter, tears and challenge. Joy and laughter was when i was with my friends, we will laugh at any joke, any silly things in this world and endless gossips.. well, that is just attitude of girls right, being 3 8, haha.. tears was when i felt stress, so depressed then i do not know what to do, especially during 2nd year, when there was a few times which i actually broke down and cry alone as a result of stress, challenges of course when there are many things in this world that test my patience, this include study, exams, assignments, misunderstandings with friends etc.

I was quite surprised that other than not being able to be with friends everyday any longer, i am not as upset as expected to leave, i remember after foundation, when i first move out of the hostel room, i was quite upset, but not anymore.. well, i am just a bit upset about not being able to jog at the lake i love so much, the place i find calm and peace when i was stress, yeah, nothing is of present tense anymore, all are past tense, kind of sad isn't it? but just a few days before i leave, i took some pictures which i love, the kind of romantic evening sky i had always love since i was a child, till now, from my hostel, unfortunately, since i took it with a camera phone, it is not as nice as expected:

still, it is pretty right? i always love this sky... rainbow-alike..

however, on the day i check-out from accommodation, i was so pissed off, very badly indeed. The fact that the Lee Ling sisters had always been respected by the boss and manager of the accommodation company and liked by their cleaners is a fact, i do not know why either, maybe that is why we get the same room time and again for a period of 3 years which none others can get it, unless they are also pets of course. Gosh, i hate the indian woman who work in maintenance office, no manners at all, really wish she could f*** off. (Um, i am not an uncivilized person, so when i scold bad words, it means i am really very angry). Yes, i checked out on thursday, and she is like want to shoo me off desperately, early morning itself she call and ask, what time will i be off, and call again at 1.45pm, to make sure that i am in my room.

she appear in front of my room at 2 sharp, my sister is not even there yet and accuse me for calling her up, i did not, all i said was i am in my room, does she know english or not? the difference between i am in my room and i want to check out, damn it.. fine, then she went immediately to my toilet and open the door, i never call cleaners because i do not like people i do not know well in my room and i am allegic to certain chemical, so i wash the loo myself all the time, it is just that during exam period, i was so busy studying that i hardly have the time to wash it, so it is dirty. But she look as if she own the company, scold me for that, i do not mind paying the penalty, but please be polite, don't act like the whole world owe you 1 million. Seriously, i want to slap her so badly, and kick ker f***ing ass so much.. who do you think you are, your salary came from my rent as well ok?

Then, when it came to refunding, the other woman make a big fuss out of it, because we insist on refunding under the name of parents, she said need parents letter la.. bla bla bla when just 2 days ago, they say anyone will do. Luckily the manager, Serena was there, she always like us, and help us solve the problem.. Man, these indian women, they are just cleaners initially, lucky enough to get work as secretaries, who they think they are? i can assure that if they are out in KL acting like that, they will get beaten up and killed for sure, no bloody manners and respect for others at all.. damn...

That was how i said goodbye in uni, yes, i am sad to leave it, especially that is where i met my bestest sisters in the world, but when i thought about those stupid indian women who work for accommodation office, i so want to slap them..

still, Nottingham university, i love you.. thanks for looking after me and transforming me from a silly teenager to a mature young adult..

Moving on to a new phase of life

Finally, after a long waiting, I can declare freedom, of course i am happy about this newly gained freedom, after all, who love exams? But I can't help feeling a bit upset about it as well, because this means that my sole role as a student had thus, ended. Haha, this is a weird way to start a blog isn't it? But this is not my first time blogging, i just started at blogspot due to the unstable condition of friendster. Well, but the fact is that, I ought to enjoy this summer, this will be my shortest summer ever, only about 46 days, and I hope that I will enjoy it to the very core, else I will regret it for sure

I have to move on, to a new chapter of my life, no more a carefree student which others define as overwork, but I have to grow up. Thinking about the upcoming July, I can't help but gulp... seems scary, because I am to start working, and it is peak period!!! But regardless how, I have to learn to be independent and stand on my two feet, become a proper, mature woman, well, i hope i can, and i have confidence that i am able to meet this target for sure.. ;)

However, while I am sitting in SA building entrance blogging, my heart can't help but to feel a little upset, I have been in this place for 4 years, seems like yesterday that I first enter this campus, and tomorrow, i will check out and say goodbye, i am thankful that this is the place that have accommodate four years of my life as a university student. And the most thankful thing I have gained here, definitely have to be you guys, my best friends, my dear sisters.

From outsiders, we became close, this is not an easy thing to achieve and i am so grateful to meet you guys, you guys rock my world!! From foundation till final year, what more can i ask for? i love you all, although there are times when we have misunderstandings and sorts, but this is life right? nothing can be smooth all the time, the only thing i am sorry about is that, born a quiet person, i don't talk much, nor did i join you all for many events, like now, you all are outside having steamboat.. yet i choose not to join, my fault.. but in my heart, i really love you all, just like my sisters and i am sorry if there is anything which i have done in the past that have lure your angers. We will stay as sisters forever ok? It does not matter whether when we are all grown up, working, married and have children, we will be friends, forever and ever

with my love, hope that you all will have a happy life ahead, good luck in whatever you do and please do remember to keep in touch.. while moving on to a new phase of our lives, we still have each other, even if we are not together, we are connected, through a strong, invisible tread called friendship..