I miss using my brains..

This is amazing, i do not understand why or how, but days that went past without using my brains made me more tired than days when i invest the whole of my concentration, especially during working times.. man, i just cant wait to return to work, its been so long and i cant help but to feel useless when i am not working..

Maybe this is the consequences after you spend most of your time from high school onwards, until university times till working times, concentrating studying or working, and you just got used to it, i can sleep less by just concentrating, and i love the days when i use my brains, fully utilise them, lets see, the last time i really use my brains was 24 june, i remember so well..

Then i went to national service, er.. in a way, their physical activities are quite fun, but we girls are often tired, having to climb hills everyday because there is where our dorm is located, i think my legs have got stronger because of that.. but other than the food which is a real problem for vegetarians since they are unable to prepare food for me, a pure vegetarian, without the consumption of onions, garlic, leek, eggs and meat, it is difficult and thats why i fell sick.. their oil is not fresh obviously, and they tend to include anchovies, errr.. who said that is vegetarian at all?

and the classes in the classroom, gosh.. i think my mentality had gone back to kindergarten stage.. you came in to class, sing a song, clap hands, take out your work book and draw a diagram with 6 branches using magic colours, each branch must be different colour and you draw what you did the day before.. then you learn to fold airplanes, draw, juggling etc.. um... i am sorry, yeah, most of it encourage you to learn how to be collaborative with others.. but i do not find it much helpful, my role there, the only thing i like about it is probably my role as a translator..

but i wont say i did not learn anything, i did.. i learn to be a bit more patient.. because in the classroom activity, my buddy is a girl that has attention problem.. i dunno.. thats what i think, she is 18 and i think, inexperience about the world, nor did she care about it.. i was her translator too and she never listen.. it seems as if the only thing she is interested in are boys... hmmm.. i wonder why, maybe i am never a person who devote the whole of my attention in the opposite sex.. i prefer to use my brains and work, from there, i derive ultimate happiness that nothing can replace.. and i am glad that the officer from the ministry as well as the commander of my camp understands..

but as stated in my previous blog, i really met some great friends that i hope, can still keep in touch after they are released in september.. heng wen, she came from the same uni as i and i forgot, maybe it is because we are never the same course, and she is very pretty and i think, can easily be a socialite.. xia, an architect who just got a job few days before she got the notification for ns.. she is nice and i enjoy listening to her gossip about the discrimination they suffered in camp.. fanny, a year younger than i and probably, my great companion as she used to sleep close to me.. she is a clerk who has just resigned for ns and wanted to aim for the sales line, she likes singing, especially SHE's songs.. and she does have a good voice.. guess i will miss the days we hid together and eat some simple breakfast instead of the oily food they provide.. mei sze, my company secretary's daughter, she is still a bit young but she is somehow a kind hearted child.. mei hoon, cute sweet little mei hoon.. kind and sweet, despite her cute looks and short height, she is a mature girl, good natured and sweet.. i will miss her.. ong, 18 years as well, very quiet but she is kind.. i remember when i was sick, she sat next to me and watch me sleep.. she is a good girl really... who else i forgot? oh ya, mel, i think she is the best malay, i translated tonghua for her.. she can sing nicely wei!!

despite the friends i made, i miss using my brains and i cant wait till next monday when i can return to work again.. =) excited excited!!

updates from the past month

So many things happened in such a short time... i will not forget that fateful 19th June, that morning when i was still laying in bed..sleeping and my dad came in and whack me up with a letter.. notification of national service..and i am to report on the 26th.. a week.. i was so stunned and angry, i still have a lot of work on hand... grrrr... but the company have to release me.. i tried to postpone a week so that i can finish my peak period but it was not granted.. so angry, anyway i got in..

i met some very good friends there.. because of the small population of chinese.. we became very close to each other, we console each other.. one thing i do not understand.. time and again they emphasize on 1malaysia, but it seems like they are forcing us.. they do not allow us to wear our hair in anyway other than a bun and our fringe must be pin up.. above that, they encourage us to wear a tudung.. that is, cover up our hair fully like a malay.. that is too much.. and no folding of sleeves..

anyway, i got sick in there.. their so called medical services are really good.. take a lot of cold shower when you are having a high fever.. they do not realised that it will cause us even more sicker.. and the worse is that they are unable to provide proper food for a vegetarian, precisely why i got sick.. fever up to 40 degrees.. they still take it as if nothing is wrong until my fever keep coming back time and again, they let me go home... by the time i got home, i was ill with fever, cough, flu and constipation, i scared my mom awfully when for a duration of 5 days, i did not visit the toilet.. subsequently with good food at home, i improved..

then, my granny passed away on the day i am supposed to return to camp... so my leave has been prolonged.. and my sister and mom, thanks a lot for their help, they filed an appeal for me at the HQ, they met this nice officer who is willing to help as he himself admit that the camp is unable to provide for vegetarians.. he suggest me to get exempted and he will help me to.. which is why i am out now..

i have met the officer on tuesday, maybe it is the first time i met him, thats why i remain a bit skeptical.. although time and again, he promised i will get the certificate of exemption by mid september, and if i dont, call him.. hopefully he will keep his promise.. because i rather finish my NS now and not postpone further, even if i will lose my life in the end.. they are to take responsibility for whatever happens.. i have been living alone in uni for 4 years and working a lot of late nights for 1 year and yet, i have never been this sick..

since now i am out and about, my focus is to get well soon and go back to work, and now, i am praying very hard to get the certificate of exemption as soon as possible to ease my own worries.. and i hope, my dear friends, will pray for me too..