Time really flies.. i still remember vividly my life as a student in Nottingham, it wasn't easy.. and even those days when kim lee was just a naive intern of corporate tax.. those days which i met my first seniors, including my direct senior who has since become a role model to me, since then until today.. to me, she is classy and intelligent, yet, she is beautiful... someone i really admire...
Life was never easy but you can make the best out of it, it basically depends on what you really want to be... you shape your ambition and dreams, you even shape your emotions.. i am a female animal so i admit too, that sometimes, i tend to surrender to my own emotions.. I will never forget, how enthusiastic i once was, as an intern, i LOVE my job and i swore i am saying it honest.. even during weekends at those days, i was thinking about work, maybe it is because that is my first job ever, in my life, and that shapes me.. i brought those memories with me and make them my motivator in life, it turns out well because during my final year, the year people say is a killer year, i scored the best i ever did in university, it was a first class, unfortunately, because i did not do that great in 2nd year, which take up 30% of my final degree result, causes me to be short of o.3% to first class.. that was such a major disappointment, one of the worse since i am short of an A to be of straight A's in SPM.
i will never forget those days when i was still in degree, each evening when i was jogging by the lake, my mind is full of the memories i have stored as an intern, how i longed to be back, sometimes when i cannot sleep at night, i dream of those days, even those pictures were printed and hung in front of my study table, it gives me the energy to continue to study, regardless whether it is up to 3am or 4am in the morning because i have found a motive in life.
when i managed to go back from an offer from kpmg without interview, i was so proud.. i have made that place home since june 2008 and i look forward to see the people i miss and love once again, only that it ends with another major setback. I was transferred, whether i like it or not, to a brand new place, regardless.. i never regret my days here.. i learnt a lot, i made a lot of friends and i still able to make myself home and stay happy... although there were a lot of setbacks.. but all in all, at least, i felt cherished.. thats the most important thing to me.
however, life is not perfect.. one by one, i see my love ones, my seniors in corporate tax and colleagues in IES, leaving... sometimes i actually felt so upset that i wanna cry, i do not make friends in a blink because i am slightly reserved and shy.. although people who knows me some time no longer felt that way.. it is in fact, easier for me to speak to you professionally than making you my close friend which i trust.. when i see one by one, they leave.. for people i know, it starts with choon ling, yi von, lee choong, eunice, auyong, shanthini, mimie, swee joo, susan, jill, tiffany, wica and angel.. so many of them i am close to have now left.. i cant help but to feel slightly depressed..
the biggest setback for me for people of this list is probably you, wica... more than you ever know because i still remember so clearly..when i was an intern, you said since we all are accounting graduates, big 4 is the place we can aim for, and few days ago you said you no longer can meet the expectations here, so you left.. sigh... you were my inspiration.. but when i started my work in IES, it has also given me a whole new view, that i can be independent without you, although you remain a very important figure in my life.. when i return next year, you will no longer be here.. but we will be friends, forever..
xin ai says that i have no point of staying in kpmg anymore since wica is no longer here... maybe if my mentality stays on in 2009, i will agree.. but now, i know i am better than i ever think i am... i can be independent.. hey, i just completed a partnership which was given on a pretty last minute basis.. that is something to be proud of.. xin ai also said that since cptx abandon me from the start, why should i return, isnt that an advantage for them?? my answer will be i made kpmg my home since 2008, i will not find a reason to leave it as long as they did not abuse me more than 5 times, i will not find a reason to bid farewell, by saying abuse, i refer to discrimination, backstab and betrayal.. well, maybe overwork to an extent, but that extent is pretty far away.. probably be the day which i was told to work 16 hours a day for a month? so far, the so called abuse, i have only encountered once... which is the time i was not given a selection to chose my career path.. but i took my revenge anyway.. SWEET!! =)
but people i mentioned above, i miss all of you, although i know there wont be a time to reverse back to those days.. but.. you guys will remain in my heart.. because we are friends.. and that means forever..
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