That is really what i do when there is really nothing to do.. thoughts and thoughts, add in some imagination, because we are growing up and our thinking changes almost every second of the day... such fluctutating moments... but it just wont slow down nor will it speed up, it may seem like yesterday when it happens long long ago... because in a blink of an eye, we grew up... but during periods when it is supposed to be torturing.. time seem to move so slowly~
been to many places today, seen many people... saw my high school classmate from far... gosh~ you really have become so cute ching han... then when i was in bangsar village, i saw eduard bomhoff eating in chocolate~ he seem to enjoy his dinner.. but it just feels weird to see him, considered as a VVIP to eat alone.. and in a place i thought meant for sweet tooths too.. never mind.. rumours sparks around had said that he is a sweet tooth anyway... maybe he really is after all... haha.. still, seeing a former DPM of Netherlands eating in such a place does not feels right.. thats why, we are ourselves, we are unique and special and there could never be another one in this world 100% similar as ourselves, we are a part of this world and without us, how can the world exist.. quoted from the law of attraction..
one year ago on this day, was the first day i worked and arrived at KPMG.. one year later, i am having fun and enjoying myself.. while jacqueline is back for medical check-up.. arghh~~ its my turn on friday.. hope i wont pengsan in front of the doctor there.. as i never like the sight of blood by all means.. heh heh.. only now, i am to wait for next month, on the 6th, when jacq and i will return as tax cosulting assistants.. hope can manage the second time round.. i really dont want to start off as an idiotic nerd again...
i know, as we grow up, we are bound to more and more ugliness of this world, like black ribbons tying us, and we struggle to release it, release ourselves in this world, but we cant, thats why some gifted people used to say they have the third eye ability when they were little, but lose it as they grew older because they are no longer innocent and pure, we do have bad and selfish thoughts sometimes and we have to control it, so that we will not cause harm to others.. i know mine, how when i am too engrossed in work, i tend to be so cool that it is scary as i will not talk.. unless to people i think is worth it... which is bad...
i am not afraid to admit my own mistakes, come on, i am human.. i am bound to make mistakes.. just be daring to fail and you will meet success.. because, failure is the mother of success.. we have to go through all these in life, unless we are really born lucky.. which if you say you never have an obstacle in life, it is totally impossible and i do not believe, why, even the richest people on earth have worries.. thats why they hire bodyguards precisely.. never be afraid to show your weakness.. if not, lessons will never be learnt, i myself used to be afraid too.. so scared that i hide myself away.. but a bud will never blossom if it dont bother to try.. so go ahead.. dont be afraid of getting underestimate by others.. to be laughed by others, to be deemed as silly and weak by others.. we learnt life through obstacles.. my friend, if you are reading this, be sure to understand that i dont mean that you are weak.. to me, you are one of the most respected person in my life.. independent and strong.. i really look up on you.. there is no need to envy me.. because you always is the friend i envy and respect and love... just show the real you to this world.. time wait for no one.. just be yourself and think from the positive side.. you will be surprised that life is actually how you want it to be.. you shape it yourself... all the best to you my dearest friend...
i miss my friends~~~ hope they all are well~~ =)
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