the right way..

hey.. i know i am too young to comment on her.. but i cant belive i actually pen it down in her birthday card.. i guess it can be my own selfish intention as well.. because i am very easily affected by people's attitude around me.. i remembered last year, when my ex-senior was in an all-day terrible mood.. all her clients are giving her problems on the same day.. and i felt her anger the whole day.. i gooble down a lunch that worth rm20 that day, on my own.. and really regret after that.. and i have to left early because i cant take her angry aura that day, it was affecting me adversely then.. but when i was at the magazine stand after i left.. i saw her walking out to dinner.. looked so down and as if want to cry anytime.. i suddenly realised how important it is for me as a junior to assist.. and how important it is to be tough to survive in the corporate world and be successful.. and i see all these attitude in her, my ex-senior wica.. thats why i always respect her.. i know at bad situations.. people tend to complain and be down.. but we should not be out.. stay strong within our own will and expectations.. maybe, i am following her footsteps a little, thats why i am fierce sometimes.. my current senior, janet said so... i never realised it myself..

thats why i admitted this fact, i gave her a positive lifestyle thingy because yeah, i do not want to be like her.. always complaining of stress.. and felt sick.. today backache.. tomorrow stomachache.. the day after chest pain and everyday headache.. i indirectly hint this.. dunno whether she caught it or not.. but i dont think so.. i put the blame on myself.. saying that when i perform below my own expectations, i will just automatically become fierce.. she thought i am stressed when she text me.. i clarified on friday evening that i am never stressed.. nor do i treat this as stress.. i called it motivation and she was amazed and speechless.. told me to keep it up.. one thing at least i am glad.. she appreciates my help.. the exact words i read from a friendster message sent to me by wica after i left as an intern.. and it was that message that prompt me to work hard in my final year because i copied it to ms word and read it occassionally, just so i can stay on strong.. and i am proud i did.. and got used to it, and thanks also to nottingham, who had trained me well indeed.. enough for me to survive up till now..and i think thats the correct attitude if you want to be successful.. and never ever.. to give up.. on anything obstacle that threatens to box you down..

last wednesday.. i worked up to 10pm again.. but i did not regret.. i finished the organizers by myself!! woo-hoo!!! 118 individuals, on my own.. because my senior complained a lot of work and do not want to do it.. i did it.. while other seniors either do it themselves or split the work with their assistants.. i undertake it myself.. and i am a newcommer.. not bad eh?

after sue ann and jessica joined kpmg, which i hardly see them as well.. middle of this month, another nottingham graduate is joining.. (giang, if you are reading this, i wonder what will you say, will you still say her smile disgust you?) it is kai ling.. she resigned from her current job and went back to notts that day, saw my younger sister and told her to tell me that.. in a positive thinking perspective.. she is telling me that i wont be alone, but i am not already.. and i am not scared of loneliness, why? because lonely is a challenge as well.. if you can overcome it, it is good also.. in a negative way, she is hinting me that i am not the only one who can work in big4, she too, made it.. but sorry.. she need to be interviewed and write CVs and all.. all these process which i never experienced.. because this job came to me instead of me going for it anyway.. haha.. so we are still different.. and this coming 31st december, 3.40pm, marks one year after yvonne lai called me for the job.. and after that i texted giang and told her.. i was studying south east asia then.. i remembered vividly..

watched mulan and love happens today.. not too bad.. love happens was nice.. but quite predictable.. i think i prefer aniston in marley and me better.. but mulan.. woah!! it was wonderful!! zhao wei acted really well.. i have always respect this chinese legend.. a girl, out of fillal piety, represented her dad to the army.. and her strength, her determination and the attitude of not giving up.. is everything i will respect in a human.. a girl, leading a pack of guy army.. she is really wonderful.. mulan.. a character i respect very well.. and she possess all the character i know is significant for me to adopt in order for me to attain success and achieve my dreams.. the first step is to beat my own weakness and be sure that i will never, ever quit..

and that, i think is the right way of life and the first action towards success!! so just try my very best and jia you!!

looking forward to my annual leave on 22nd dec to next year!! yahoo!!