it have been ages

Wow.. i have no idea when was the last time i blog.. and so many things happened, which when they happen, i am filled with all types of feelings.. now, i feel numb..

It is officially peak period now, and yeah, my first peak period.. it is also the time i am able to prove my worth, although in the end, whether this will prove to me as any use, i have no idea. the nights i went home at 10 - 11pm and the weekends which i sacrificed just to come back and work have become very frequent... and now, officially started my studies.. i have to make sure that i am able to cope with both..

The good things that happened recently is that, i know i am improving daily, i have certainly become more daring ( or rather, i am born brave all the time, thats why my mom called me sam-seng when i was young, because during my first day in kindie and primary, i never cry, but made my way through the crowd successfully, i am not that type of mama's gal...it is only when i was hurt by someone and some incident badly, i begun to develop fear) and because of this inborn talent, i have the ability to deal with difficult officers..

I get to attend the dharma assembly i love!! it is to eradicate bad karmas so that my year ahead will come smoothly, although i did not get to finish it until the very last day, it is still better than nothing... The Emperor Liang repentence ceremony.. in my old blog in friendster, i wrote the story behind this chanting session, in chinese.. behind this repentence dharma assembly, is actually a beautiful story, of an emperor's love for his concubine, might as well write it again, haha.. We all know that an emperor from the olden days have many concubines. Emperor Liang does as well, but one of his concubine is very cruel, she especially do not respect Buddhism, she forces the monks to eat meat when they are suppose to maintain a pure lifestyle and she never treats servants nicely. She died young, and was reborn as a snake, encounter all sorts of suffering, she appears in the dream of Emperor Liang's dream one night and because of forgiveness, kindness and love, he discussed with the monks what can be done, and thus, came this Emperor Liang's repentence ceremony. It was said that after the ceremony came to an end that first time, the emperor himself dreamt of his concubine again, being reborn in a good place.

Terry called again and he will be back in late july... hurrraayyyyy!!!!!!

Nevertheless, my life is not without obstacles as well.. i was annoyed when my director told me to postpone my studies for CPA to work 2 weeks ago, i was irritated by her pushy behaviour that always have this weird fear in work, rushing and pushing here and there.. and it always happen at 5.15pm, 15 minutes before the working day ends.. and last week was real bad because i was in a rush... in the end, i got scolded for being late as my transport have been waiting for me for ages

suppose to meet up tomorrow.. hope i can make it really!! never seen them for so long.. miss my dear sisters!!! >.<