Dont complain, prove it..

Sometimes, i am very tired

there are times that i felt so fed-up with life

so fed-up of the constrain in my life which i do not deserve

but what can i do?

i was not given the choice from the beginning,

but despite all of it,

i tell myself

do your very best

eventually you will get what you want, whether it is a long wait or not,

prove it to them that you are better than they think

you are just not another fragile cute face

you are strong in heart

because you are you

but, although i keep telling myself that

i am tired

not with the burden and unfulfilled wish i carry in my heart

but with the people i face each day of my life

where i want to be

i hardly hear anyone complain about the workload and responsibility

they do it diligently as that is their responsibility

i have seen that since 2008

and i tell myself to be like them

but, where i am now

people are just different

i hate the word stress

thats why i will never use it

i call fallbacks temporary shutdown situations in life

not something that will kill you

not something that deserve your tears

i try to smile

but complains around me pull me down

is it true that this is due to i am still a junior?

or i am just not meant to be here?

i prefer to think the 2nd option

as it will make me feel better

oh, when can i return to where i belong

be who i want myself to be again?