Sometimes i think that they did it on purpose, being the position i am now, i dont have much power to determine my own future, hence my reliance on my seniors and managers are strong.. because i was not given a choice at the first place.. sigh!! it seems as if i am like a puppet, they determine my life... regardless, i will still perform all i can, i will still give in my best, because i understand that it is unfair if i take out my anger on whatever i do and in the end, i will harm my own reputation for producing awful quality jobs.. something i dont want at all, to happen...
but time and again i bring up to my senior, of my wish to return to where i belong.. she said ok each time but no action was ever taken.. i feel so disappointed... and cant help but to wonder if this is some selfish intention? will she proscrastinate until it is too late to do anything just to keep me? i know and understand that humans are essentially selfish, but what about the victims? am i destinated to just give in? that is so unfair to me.. but, did they ever realise it?
my senior, to my very surprise and hers as well, got a new assistant out of the blue last week.. and know, i am assisting in training her, she is quite a smart girl, but a bit raw, it is alright, guess i was like that when i first came as an intern.. and that time, i got a rather strict and fierce senior which force me to buck up and work hard, and learn as fast as i can..
my intention now is to try my very best to train her, and eventually, i hope, with all my heart, to be able to be given an opportunity to return to where i belong, i dont think that is a lot to wish for.. i am quite easily contented.. just that one wish to come true, and i am will be happy.. i am always ready to give in all the effort i have in whatever i do.. just this one wish to come true is all i ask for..
do i have the chance? please say yes... *pray hard*
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