Humans...

Quoted from Confucius.. A man is clean and kind in depth from the moment of his birth, it is the experience and environment overtime that changes him to become worse than what he is before..

Quoted from Han Fei Tsu.. A man is ignorant when he is young, it is the experience that changes him to become wiser and more ethical...

Of the two, i choose to believe confucius.. yes, both are respectable philosophers of the past, but based on their perspective, what confucius said is more true, and thats my point of view.. this is because, it is proven, look at the children around us, they are innocent and sweet, and they have proper mannerism when taught properly, but such sweet children may eventually change to become wild and unfavourable when they are older, why? it is due to what they have been through mainly...

or is it that some people are just born evil and greedy?? and this cause them being unsuccessful in life, but they will but the blame on others instead... they love fame and taking from others, but dislike to be the other way round, and yet, they wonder why they have so few friends... i have known a person like that all my life.. this person, could have been better if he knows how to change himself for the better, unfortunely, he choose not to.. sorry to say, this person happens to be my own father..

i have just finished a HK series last night, it may be those olden type story, well.. should i say something i am comfortable with?? i dunno.. for some reason, from young, i felt pretty connected to the olden type of china movies and stories, people suspect that i am part of somebody who live in the palace or rather, a concubine or something.. LOL.. nvm

i think a person have to practice kindness all the time, like what the movie taught me, speak good words, do good deeds and show goodwill, i believe that one good deed deserve another, hence, if one is with a kind heart, even if nobody assist him or her, Buddha or God above will bless them, they will live a rather warm and happy life, of course, not without obstacles, everyone have obstacles and challenges.. but theirs get sorted out easier...

and i think people ought to work hard in life.. it is when we work hard, if we know how to enjoy the torture and suffering, everything in this world can be a source of enjoyment, like eating lotus seeds... it is bitter on its own, but there is a bit of sweetness in it.. that describe life alright.. i know i was pretty incorporative during the beginning of my job, because i was still fighting against my own wishes, dreams and conscience... i was not happy with the situation they out me in - without a choice to be made.. but i tried to enjoy it, in some ways and times, i managed to.. although till now, i know i cant be in this line forever, i am not those who can live with regrets because time and again i emphasize, i hate it so so so much... i want to achieve my own dreams and be in the right department, but i have no regrets to stay here and learn a lot.. an entire different knowledge and although when i start missing my rightful department, i tend to get upset and sometimes cry (when i am not those who cry at all) ... but i know i will not regret it.. for life..

i hate people who expect gold will fall from the sky and go into their pockets, i hate liars, betrayals, cheaters, backstabbers, i think all of them are a nuisance.. dumb people.. and in addition, if they are lazy, and they just love fame too much that they will not admit it, rather, they choose to put the blame on others on it.. they will not apologise when they know they did something wrong and expect people to forgive them regardless what.. and, they just love to show off... they like to pick on the mistakes on others, say when you did something wrong, they scold you stupid in the public, when you are tired after a long day work, and you just want to rest, while he wants you to work as he does not want to do it himself, he call you lazy.. and the worst is, he takes the sacrifice of others for his own benefit, as if it is his own.. because admiting it will mean lose face.. i really hate people like that, and i have just met a person like that in the whole of my life, yet i cannot hate him, since he is my own father..

time and again he wants to borrow money.. this time it is enough, my mom is not working and she does not deserve to be his financer... what kind of man is he? have he any guts at all? how i want to curse it.. but i cant.. just hope that he will awake one day, if such hope actually come true.. i dunno..

sigh!! humans..