Tired.. sleepy...

It is Sunday.. if it is just another normal Sunday, i would have sleep until 11.30am, then got up, slumber around doing my own work, taking my own sweet time.. but not today.. i am at office since 11am.. and now, i am just done with what i am suppose to do.. and tomorrow will be another day.. i hardly had any rest it seems.. especially i have to work late often even on weekdays.. well.. i asked for it, i have no regrets though despite being tired..

friday night was... i have no comments at all... i came home, had my dinner, then prayers..bathe.. it is around 12 am.. and off i sleep.. and the next thing i knew, i woke up at 12 pm.. guess the accumulated tiredness have finally been, realesed.. once and for all.. and i know coping with studies now is not an easy work, all i can do is that, constantly console myself that i can do it because there is obviously no reason i cant..

i heard a piece of news about uni.. well.. although i really miss uni.. and its environment and surroundings, and especially, my dearest friends.. i cant help but to feel sorry for uni.. and my juniors.. those starting foundation in april 2010.. malaysia is really back to the stoneage, or rather, too bias over local and australia education.. the PM himself graduated from the same uni as i.. but his wife is such a aussie edu lover, and their children? they are in USA.. what on earth.. aussie edu is that, with 3 years of education, you can get a degree, it is only until you complated the 4th year, you will get honours.. and for us, 3 years alone is sufficient to get both.. and now, the government disallow it.. so my juniors may have to do 4 years of degree.. while those who enrol in UK.. 3 years.. in this case, might as well go to UK.. i hope uni will come out with a solution to solve it.. say.. give them an MA or MSC in the 4th year? it is a wonder if this is allowed..

to me, this is absolutely nonsense.. we are a pretigious university, and as its graduate, i am more proud than ever.. because we got through the suffering in the past, we are able to adapt quickly in the working environment.. we caught up quickly, with no problems at all.. may seem a bit proud here, but i must announce.. despite myself having zero background in tax.. i caught up eventually because i have been through the worse.. those days.. tears flow because the stress is too much.. i remembered twice in my uni life.. at night, lock in my own room, i cried with no reason at all.. chances are cause by stress which made me emotional.. but both times, cried 4 hours straight, and after that, convince myself to get up again and never to give up, ever..

wica came over to my place for a few minutes on friday. she just came back from thailand and got me a small souvernir.. that is so sweet of her.. she still remember me, and she asked me if i am busy, which sadly, i am.. very.. determining the taxable benefit for the assignees of newfield restricted stock programme is killing me.. why IRB is so ma fan? must prorate their employment period to see the taxable benefit of RSA and stock options? i have to calculate them one by one.. and there are 12 of them involve.. this is very time consuming.. dang.. i miss having wica as my senior, fierce as she is, she is a friend.. not to say that janet is not.. both are actually very good friends to me.. but i guess by trust from the heart, in view that i am born a rabbit, and my soul mate is a dog, which is wica, and my enemy by birth is roaster, which sadly, is janet.. i am a very conservative person i guess.. but that is who i am.. i love janet and i know she cherish me very well.. but somehow, i am used to being strict to myself.. LOL.. guess as a notts student, i have a bit of self-torture attitude..

carolyn joined kpmg this week.. welcome carolyn!! hope you will like it here..

told janet about ms teh issue just now.. which now i think i should not have done so.. maybe, it is better for me to get approval from boss.. i want to return someday, really.. but nvm.. lets hope despite this, i can still get the opportunity successfully.. attaining own's ambition is something everyone wants to achieve.. so do i.. and although i really love this company like my home.. if in the future, i am unable to transfer.. say by January 2013.. then i have no choice but to bid farewell.. this place have been my home since June 2008, but home is the place that abuses me, then i will have to leave..

It is not that i dont like the department i am at now, i like it.. but i just dont want to regret the whole of my life on some ambition that could have been achieved but i just gave up due to destiny arrangement.. i am not that kind of person, even if it will take up my life to do it, i will.. because i am willing to sacrifice anything in this world to attain a dream which is deemed to be achievable..

hope everything will turn out fine in the end though.. i am a very greedy person, i want to ace in my own work and studies, and above all, i want to achieve my dreams..