Okay, its saturday and i am in office.. i sacrifice my sleep, my entertainment, my drama to work. yesterday, i would have thought that it is normal.. but now, what is on my mind is just simply.. is it worth it? am i stupid to be here at all?? i could have be in mid valley now and meet up for gatheritng with my darling friends instead of being here alone...
came in at 9.30am today and pray here, and start the job around 10.15am.. everything on my own, and those are not even my clients.. this is my first time doing this and i am not sure how either.. but i do everything on my own with the limited guidance from the so called briefing, as now, i am considered the only new person in my department.. someone who have not done this before.. and yet i tried my very best..
my senior came in near 11 and from then, start searching for a notice of assessment and then start practicing her emcee script for a colleague's wedding tomorrow.. she didnt even do her work, i do her work.. went to cptx there and speak to a former senior, she said she had heard things about my current senior, yes, i was involved in that case, the currency rate and all.. the mistake was done early this year, so its not my fault.. how my senior got chastised by an associate director and she criticise him back right in front of his face as well.. i know both of them are not those staff who are especially careful.. but to me, admit your mistake and dont push the blame on others.. seriously, i, being her direct junior.. is not aware that this happened when other departments know it already...
suddenly, when i thought of how my presence here have reduced her job, is not worth it.. she seldom do it all as well.. its like she allocate the work to me most of the time only.. but the cptx senior told me that my ability to face big clients now is a good thing.. i get to learn more, it is true and i do not deny.. but sometimes.. it is really not fair and not worth it..
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