zzzzz.....

thats how i feel now.. sleepy.... goodness knows what on earth happened to my sleeping hours, i will feel tired very early at night alright.. so i sleep early when when i woke up, very alert.. its 3.45am... so basically i have to force myself back to sleep.. which is difficult because you will start dreaming.. and that means not fully rested.. so when i actually get out of bed, after a day at work, i will be very exhausted.. again.. how i hope that this process will eventually end.. hmmm.. wonder if this means a new kind of insonmia? or just sleeping disorder.. or simply i sleep too much during weekends

this had been quite a lonely week for me.. cham lo.. if my senior is not around for one day and i am already so lonely.. what will happen to me when she is away for 2 weeks next month? will i die of boredom? or not talking at all for a duration of 2 weeks? sometimes i do wish that i am involved in tax core 1.. so i do not have to face so many matters on my own.. i know this sounds irresponsible.. but for me, my knowledge of tax is so little that it is sadistic.. and when senior is away and i am expected to undertake all the responsibilities.. i am so stressed out i want to die.. i want to cry.. sometimes i felt so helpless but who can i lean upon? if i am here for at least half a year already, and know all the stuff, perhaps it is better.. but now, undertaking all responsibilities with zero knowledge.. this is stress.. and her pairing is not exactly helpful.. maybe it is because i am not her assistant.. especially at these moments.. i miss corporate tax a lot.. although my ex-senior did leave me alone last time.. but very infrequent.. but, running away is not a solution.. so at all times, i always have to persuade myself to stay strong.. 2 years is not a long time and i am sure to be able to go through it..

celebrated yivon's birthday today.. initially want to belanja her, but ended up manager belanja pula.. apa la.. but my food came as a shock.. so much.. really pengsan.. haha.. of course, cannot deny that it is expensive la.. happy 24th birthday yivon! may all your dreams come true!! =)

ahha.. waiting for saturday to come.. =p

cant wait cant wait cant wait.. cant wait to see you girls again!! i miss all of you so so much.. although it is destinated to be part off sadly.. as a farewell to teng teng and chana who will be doing their masters in uk.. all the best girls!!