appreciation

this week seems short as there are only 3 working days.. but one thing for sure, a lot happened.. and i seem to be able to know a lot of hidden things in a blink of an eye..

well.. lets talk about wednesday itself.. the previous friday, my senior told me that she had negotiate with amelia that there is no need to send her passports to klcc.. and then, what happened?? wednesday morning she came with a dark face and start to query me.. why didnt i do it, when i explain, the shock expression on her face imply to me that there may be a miscommunication between she and my senior.. and my senior is away for full day course that day.. unfortunely.. so she start spreading my being irresponsible to the entire department.. i do not care less of it.. i have seen through her that very minute..

then, by end of the day, she realised she need help to do travel schedule, she start being so sweet to me.. so i came in early the next day just to do it for her.. and amendments means that my own work for janet have been delayed.. that was what happened on thursday.. friday.. haiz.. kesian jill.. she is out from morning to do passport verification for amelia, from jalan duta to kampung attap to return passport to shangri-la hotel.. how she have been tortured.. amelia knows that with imcomplete information.. jalan duta will be unwilling to verify the passports.. but she practically have jill beg the officers.. if she is so smart.. why didnt she do it on her own?? but it did not turn out to be successful in the end and jill dont care la.. anyway her own senior is not amelia anyway..

then yesterday.. i am in such a emergency rush as well.. the u-mobile case of another senior.. partner told me to go out to cheras at 3pm.. and since the client is leaving today.. they need the tax clearance letter.. so i was send to collect it and told to go clients place to pass the letter to them.. phew.. luckily i did ok.. but it was so hot yesterday that i want to die.. i reach office only about 5.15pm.. but glad that i did it.. after that, when everyone left, leaving only me, susan and jill in office.. we start talking as partner told the three of us to plan for out trip to hike broga hill?? man.. so i am back there again?? haha..

then we eventually linked to amelia.. jill start complaining about what happened to her, she said when she photocopy the passports, amelia told her that she is going to do the travel schedule herself.. but in the end, i did it.. and then she went out for amelia.. amelia's mood is like the unpredictable weather.. and susan said she is never sincere.. she will be sweet to you when she need help and when she dont, she will show you her bad temper.. she said that no one in the department like her.. they just tolerate with her... but it is undeniable that she really can act to be the goody girl in front of partners.. work very hard and all.. thats why they like her.. but to juniors.. she treat them like dirt.. i saw it myself since i am facing her... fatimah, her junior who came in the same time as me.. did not pick up very fast, i understand that.. after all, being new, who can learn in a speed?? people learn from mistakes and i am glad that from my intern days.. my ex-senior, wica.. although she is fierce with me, but she appreciate my effort.. and wrote me a good comment, which is why i came back to the company..

but fatimah, although her learning is slower, but who can be a natural born worker especially on her first job??? chances should be given to her so that she can catch up, she is very hardworking, she stay up to 9-10pm sometimes and put her best effort.. and amelia never know.. and what happened? she scolded fatimah over mistakes commited.. so loud everyone can hear.. i feel so bad for fatimah.. amelia did not even teach her properly.. and susan said, she overheard it, she filed a complain on fatimah to partner, who said they might change another assistant for her.. and as for fatimah, there might be a risk that she will be fired.. that is too much!! what effort did fatimah put in, why did they turn a blind eye on it?? it is so unfair on her!!

that is the moment i realised.. how much i miss corporate tax environment, although i have gotten used to the work in international executive services department... and start to like it, the environment is just not the same, not what i am used to.. unlike my intern days in corporate tax.. when everyone dont talk at all during peak period but naturally, there is a feeling call home.. i felt like i understand them from deep within the heart.. its like a transparent connection, i cant see it.. but yet i can feel it.. in this current department, other than a few good friends.. and of course, a nice and cute senior, janet, middle aged edi but seem much more younger than i.. i seem to be disconnected from the rest. i missed the environment i called home but from where they put me now.. i hardly get to go there.. haizz

just hope that somewhere near in the future, this dream of mine will be realised.. to fulfil it, i am willing to sacrifice even by delaying my time for promotion.. but please.. no team 4.. thats my only hope..