I really hate it... what is the use sometimes of me working so hard?? i like this job, but i hate the times when i really really felt so unappreciated, and especially i got blamed for something i did not do wrong...
I like to undertake responsibilities, i can probably sacrifice everything to get some achievement.. because i have a character called never give up.. but if at the first place, that thing is not done by you and you just took over to amend it, just put back accordingly, because that is what i did.. if it is wrong, then the first person placed it wrongly.. and i got blamed for it, that is so unfair..
maybe this is life.. maybe, people who do not understand me will think i am not that worthwhile.. i really did take back the advisory fail yesterday, stayed up until 1am just to study it, understand it.. it is not easy, but i have the determination, and i was so tired, my senior knows it and respect me for it.. because i am willing to do that.. but others, they just said i have the motivation to do it because i am new.. does this means as time goes.. i will be very lazy?? that is so unfair...
when can i go back to cptx? why do i have to stay so late to work here? sometimes, i just dont understand why...
yesterday was just a wind behind our back
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