yesterday had been quite a day for me.. never would i expect that the day will turn out this way.. i was expecting just a typical working day in office, doing what i am supposed to do and all... but then as i waited and waited, my senior did not appear again and no notification had been sent.. so i was told to text her, it turns out that she is on mc.. this is the 23rd day she left me alone on my own since i came but i understand it, that she is unwell.. although there are times, which i do not deny, that i envy others whose seniors were there most of the time for them.. i know her absence will somehow allow me to be more independent and able to stand on my two feet.. but seriously, when you got used to having someone noisy next to you, the sudden quietness is so difficult to bear sometimes..
just by arranging the ESOS thing really take up a long time, i never seen such long documents.. nor can i imagine what will happen if i am the one reading it.. i think i will vomit man.. ewwwww... although it is true that i am a finance, accounting and management graduate.. i admit to the fact that i never really have passion for finance.. and stock options contribute a major part of it.. to me, it is just boring stuff.. something i can call my lullaby when i am suffering from insonmia..
what are friends?? to me, a real do not have to be one that always stays with you, entertain you, talk to you about endless things under the sun.. but one that is always there for you when you need it.. and i rather play that role.. i do not need companion with me all the time, because to me, friends that are true are always in my heart, and never far away.. i believe that we are linked somehow from within the heart.. that is what i define friends as.
the worse thing is my e-dialouge.. i hate it man.. i rather do 100 assignments than that.. imagine you having to set goals for yourself for the next one year?? yerrr... i dont like la.. somemore i submitted the first copy last month after i passed probation.. then my PM did to review till yesterday and want me to amend and submit to her yesterday itself.. i did it.. but yerrr....
before i left, get to speak to wica.. feel so good to talk to her somehow.. my ex-senior who used to be so fierce towards me.. but yet she is such a wonderful friend.. really, something nowadays i tried not to think but there are times this thought will come back and attack me, and cause me to be at war with myself again.. i know it is really bad of me.. but i really do look forward to return there one day.. many people suddenly noticed Spot today, my little doggie handphone seater.. which is given to me by wica and auyong.. really want to and hope to return there and fulfil my own ambition one day..
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