All i want to do is sleep...

I have no idea, maybe it is due to having lack of sleep during the weekend, thats why i am so sleepy and blur now.. perhaps i am too used to the fact that having sufficient sleep is important.. thats why a few days of lacking it makes me more tired and blur than others...

I keep on making mistakes i know i would not have done it.. thats something sad.. this is obviously not my usual self..

It started from last friday.. i went to bed late because i was watching drama with my mom.. and got up late on saturday.. i made kar yee waited for me for 10 mins because we are supposed to go out.. and i am late.. sigh~~

It was good to see her, she just got herself a job in Ernst and Young, many congrats to her, I am so happy for her.. i am sure she will do pretty well.. also, we exchanged ideas on office environments and politics.. and we came to one conclusion.. regardless where one work, big company or small.. the most important thing is that we keep quiet.. people just simply enjoy gossiping.. perhaps you told them A, and by end of the day, it has become Z.. this is a very common situation.. so the best surviving method is to do whatever deemed to be own responsibilities and do it well.. talk less and listen more.. only grab a few best friends when you really know them enough...

She told me to join her there at EY... i rejected then.. but come to think of it now, if i cannot get back to where i want and belong, perhaps, leaving may not be a bad idea.. but when only.. when will it be the right time? i am giving the company chances until next year only.. when i reach 2 years here.. In a way, i am quite sad just to think of there is a possibility i might be leaving this place which i call home since intern days in 2008.. i remember so well, every bit of memory which gather here.. but my affinity with EY is not bad either... they actually accept my CV to be an intern there.. it is just that during that time.. i was stupid enough to send my documents vide normal post..

That very night, mom suddenly got very high blood preasure.. highest ever in her life and have to be rushed to the hospital.. I was left at home and i cant sleep due to worry.. they came back around 6am.. it was then i slept.. 3 hours and i got up to do housework.. i managed to sneak a nap in the evening, about 1.5 hours.. and on sunday and monday night, i slept only 5 hours each.. man... one thing i am happy about my sister is ending her internship this week is that, i do not have to be woken up by her alarm 15 mins earlier than my time.. and walk over to off her alarm.. she sleep so much nearer but i dunno whether she does that on purpose or not.. or she just cannot get up..

Now i really am tired and sleepy.. thats why i have been doing stupid mistakes.. dang.... wake up lee ling kim.. stop being such a sleepy head..

but.. i really wan to sleep~~ -_-