As mentioned in my earlier blog, nothing feels so good than coming back to office.. if i like working before, then after going through that experience that traumatized me, i think i will cherish every minute of my life there more than ever.. Although the first week itself is not without challenges, but regardless, i rather face this than the mental torture of racial discrimination..
It is a mixed effect after all... some were shocked at the fact that i am back so early, when i am supposed to appear only next month.. others, on the contrary, had no idea i got out early because they felt that it has been too long since they last see me.. Laying work aside for a month really require a lot of catching up.. whew... but i try my best in whatever i do.. i know that now, cherish each day of my life to the fullest..
I did not participate in the tree planting CSR activity this year, not until this dry cough recover, it had been a month, although i am a lot better, but once i enter an air-cond room, my throat will feel dry and itchy, and i will just cough and cough, it will be worse if i ever start sweating, so it is better i dont go.. man.. that made me remember the time when i was very sick with fever, cough was very bad.. and i was forced to sleep in the medic room at night, instead of thinking me as a sick person and let me sleep the way i am comfortable in.. the teacher who is supposed to look after me ended up switch on the air cond till 16 degrees plus the ceiling fan is running at the 4th level, i was shivering and keep on coughing that night, as a consequence, i have yet another sleepless night there.. while the teacher herself is so comfortable that she snooze..
I know that the peak in corporate tax this year is terrible.. due to the high percentage of the employees tender their resignation.. i feel very bad too.. but i cannot do anything.. although my performance manager agreed to let me pursue my dreams there.. but no specified time is given.. i hope to go back soon, but i really do not know when.. so i choose not to disturb them, my ex-seniors.. until yesterday evening, when i just dropped by to say hi.. my ex-senior suddenly said she forgot that i came back, should have asked me to help her out.. sigh... wish i can.. but when? perhaps after she left the company? seriously, i cant help but still feel sad as all of them, these first seniors i know, i recognise, and who first introduce me to the firm, all of them are either leaving or had left.. sometimes, i hope that time can just be kept frozen as 2008, the year when i joined as a vacation trainee.. although i have a stable job in a different department and able to win the heart and attention of my superiors.. but nothing, absolutely nothing, beat those days.. i will miss them awfully.. after they left, will we get to meet that often again? i guess the answer has to be, we can always keep in touch.. but we wont see each other that often.. but we will always be friends.. they are my superiors.. in my heart, will always and forever be..
I admitted to the fact that eunice's and auyong's VT is my junior from university, but i do not like her, yes, she is one of the geniuses in university.. but i dislike her character.. my ex-senior suddenly got interested and asked why, she said there is actually someone i dont like.. ya, i guess i do not hate people easily.. i did not tell her really why.. not when that VT is still around.. but i guess.. since this is my private blog and not many people even know that i blog, i guess it is okay to confess here...
First thing is, she lied.. i remember when my little sister was in form 5, she studied very hard for her SPM, sleeping only 4 hours each night.. in the end, she got beautiful results, 12 A1s and was the 3rd best scorer of Wilayah Persekutuan KL.. appearing in papers and all, I am so very proud of her... this VT girl, her results was good, but not as good as my sister, the same amount of As i scored for my own SPM, 10As.. the difference is that she came from a smart school. in addition to that, while we honestly confess our family's annual income, she keep some hidden, make it seem as if she is the poorer one, hence she got the scholarship.. when actually, she is more well off than we are.. she can afford more branded things than us.. she can afford to take a trip to UK for 1 semester when none of us can afford due to the expensive currency rate.. maybe i should not dislike her for such a trivial matter.. but as a person who is as honest as the day and will not lie unless it is for the benefit of all.. i can not stand such a person..
Second thing is that, she make used of people... made used of.. us.. Well, it was like that, my sister and her, both remain as top students in university.. and both of them are receivers of the dean's award.. so the dean threw a party at his house and invited these students to his home for dinner.. it was a place which all of us do not know, but my sisters managed to find the map and made our way there.. .. being nice, we offered to send her there.. thank goodness i was at work, else i could have rip her apart.. so, we took her there.. and she, acting to be the dean's pet.. bought some expensive wine for him.. never did she offered my sister or others whether they want to share or not.. she is just an attention seeker..
not to comment anything, but in the working world.. i think lying is not good, to make things seem more serious.. people who is fond of lying, to me, are people who have ability to create fraud.. and people who like to make use.. is the culprit who will create office politics and sadness for others, just for the spite of herself.. i wonder, what will happen if she is ever jealous of the achievements of others? what will she do.. thats why i do not deem her as likable.. she is more complicated a person than she seems..
I have gotten a new handphone.. like it like it.. after a few rounds.. i am back to nokia again.. Nokia c-6.. haha.. happy happy~~
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