I need inspiration

I am seriously in need of inspiration... Haha.. it seems like in this world, when a person satisfied one need or want, he or she will move on to the next one... All these wants are probably in the infinity bracket.. It never ends, not even when you are a multimillionaire in this world.. somehow, human are just like that, I guess this is why there is such a thing called greed in this world.

Now that I have satisfied my need of using my brains... ( which i really realised, after you enter a class that can turn you into an absolute idiot because they treat and teach you as if you are a kid in kindergarten, my brains really become slower a bit and define things in a speed slower than before.. stupid idiot class that made me this way), now, i am in search of inspiration.

Those days, when I was in secondary school and university (wow, i cant believe that i am using the word "those days", maybe i really am getting old...hmmmm.....), i used to write stories and draw a lot, it helps to balance up my right brain, whoose function is for creativity stuff, then i can concentrate on serious stuff better than ever.. ah.. thats the beauty of human nature i guess.. LOL...

I am never much of an outdoor person, ever since young till now, maybe that is one of the reason why i got sick so easily in NS. i am not meant for too much of extreme activities.. I mean, i like mild outdoors activities, like how i got addicted to my evening walk, now come to think of it, it is also one of the source on how i search for inspiration... it feels so good when the wind blow across my face, and in my mind, are full of memories which i cherish with a whole heart and soul.. somehow, it just made me smile to myself happily and contented.. i know that sounds crazy, but something as simple as this, i think i want nothing more than that...

I remember, I used to write stories when i was in secondary, especially after I finished a taiwanese drama or during midnight, when burning the midnight oil feels dull and also during rainy nights... ah..... so nice!! after that, somehow when i am growing up, that inspiration is reducing more and more, which i also dunno why.. that was what i do during Form 5, SPM year

Uni final year, out of the blue really, i picked up designing evening gowns.. i guess it came from an all time favourite drama of mine from Taiwan.. tokyo juliet.. that time i cannot find the original so i got the pirated version, but quality is horrible.. so i cant watch a second time, until yesterday i finally found it.. so happy~~ and it is the last! complete set. selling for only RM39.90.. so happy~~~ next week i am going to get another 2 touching movies as well.. my lucky star which is related to jewellery design and starlit.. muahahaah..

I always need things and events that are touching to inspire me.. I need touching music, movies, dramas, calm scenery etc... and it seems like it has been some time since i found it, without my inspiration, i lost my creative ability, and when i lost that as well and unable to write or draw, i will lose my attention in work, lost the efficiency and effectiveness.. and that is bad because i think i live on that to boost my day to day work.

ah~~ hopefully i can find it soon... =)